So for those of you who have know me for a good portion of my life you know I have always had a little trouble with either self-esteem or feeling good enough...i dont know how to describe it?
Well let's see...Pre-baby I used to be around a size 4-6 and sometimes fit into a size 2 depending on the fit and brand I was wearing and POST-baby I am not that size anymore...really dont want to tell you what size I am lol! Anyways, I've always been concious about how I look or my body size even when I was smaller than I am now...I think what I'm needing and striving for is a sense of Self-Confidence (not cocky) no matter what size I am! A woman does not have to be a size 4 to look good or have a awesome personality...it takes Self-Esteem and confidence!
It is really easy for me to say it out loud or writing it BUT it is really hard to put it into action...WHY IS THIS?
This is always an issue with probably all women out there...either they are over weight, too skinny, struggling to look good or feel good about their selves.
I need motivation or a partner...I pray for help but I'm still not motivated to either get up and go work out or eat right!!
Dear Lord,
I pray asking you to heal my heart and give me that self-steem I lost somewhere down the road. I pray that I might be able to be comfortable with who I am and the way you made me. Give me the strength to say no to food that isn't good for me to put inside my body. May I glorify you Lord by gaining confidence in my self. Thank You for all you have provided for me.AMEN
Let's change "really don't want to tell you what size I am"...to..."what size I wear". Your jean size is not who you are. But like you said, believing that in your heart is different than knowing it in your head. Who you are is the Righteousness of God in Christ Jesus! Whoo-Hoo! How do we take knowledge from our heads, and get it really rooted deep in our hearts? How do we take the lies that are deep in our hearts and minds, and throw them away? I believe that the more time you spend with God in communion (I don't mean the Lord's Supper), the more confidence you will gain. Time spent with God is the key. The deeper our friendship with God, the more we will want His approval and the more confident we will be that Jesus won this for us on the cross! The weaker our friendship with the world, the less we will look for the affirmation of men. Keep pressin' in.
ReplyDeleteSince sugar is addictive, it takes about two weeks for us to ween ourselves from the stuff. But like you said, with accountability (a partner) you can make it through that 2 weeks. When I lived in VA I was struggling with massive weight gain after Lilly's birth. I lost 20 lbs in 6 weeks on a strict diet that Israel and I did TOGETHER. That was awesome for me! I could not have done it without him. The team work was great for our marriage. Now I'm back in the same boat after baby #4- except this time it is worse, and I am about to take a different approach.
Maybe you and Zach can do something together. I know Zach need not loose one more ounce! But maybe you can work out together...Do some strength training together. Maybe you can make a 6 week food plan, yours a sugar free weight loss plan, and his maybe something that will encourage muscle mass growth....What do you think? My goal is to loose 5 dress sizes by August. I'm ready to get back to where I was my senior year in college. If you're looking for external motivation, use me as an example of where you do not want to go! I NEVER thought I would weigh what I do now! Push for a size 6-8 before baby # 2. I think you can do it in 2 months! I know you can! But set your goal date further...maybe June. When it comes to physical fitness, I think Nike has it right- Just Do It!
Remember, healthy change is from the inside out.
It's better to have a clean house with broken shutters, than a house with curb appeal that is filthy inside. You catch my drift...
Oh, and one more thing, YOU are Exquisite!